I started and finished the box

It wasent me that messed things up

I came and got blamed for the mess

I am mopping it up only cause

I still get to see you

Loveand care has never been a crime

But too often I find myself on my knees at the end

I have so many questions you never saw through

Oblivious ways directed your tradgey

you cant see but a foot further than your face

Because you are always looking down

 

You cant see your own heart

And you cant accept a dream

Someone finally cared for you

But Im not there

Because I did what I was supposed to do

And you never cared

Im cringing on the wall in my corner with face in my hands

grabing for the empty box

 

All along I thought it was you

I covered your mouth and closed my eyes

I pushed too hard too fast

I am turning pages by 

I thought we understood each other

Now on chapter 3

I have a higher understanding

I flip back to see it everything

You didnt tell me

I thought everything was OK

But now I know I was irresponsible

 

I thought the ground was level

I saw the base rot away

I thought it would stop

Impatience over took me

But who am I to say anything

Our lack of communication severered

what was in my heart to find yours

all because of your wading interests of the formalities

 

I awoke to a scare

Only to find you in a lifeless stare

I caressed your hand

I shed tears

 

With each fell hundreds of memories

No one can be prepared for this day

I tugged and hollered hopeing the spell would be lifted

I kissed her goodbye

And I remembered all our fun and pasttimes

I pulled down your eylids

But they resisted

With all of the weight of our memories lost

 

 

 

Everything I loved

Everything I knew

Was your guise

Aimed to please

Cause it was more than you had ever had

It hurt you,

All I knew was I wanted you

Finally you spilled your conscience to me

I didnt know you felt those ways

So you threw me away,

towards that empty waste basket

you had given me false promises

But you were all I wanted

Ive gotta be honest ive been waiting for you all my life

I thought you were more than a veneer 

 

More often now than then

I find myself waiting pacing

I hate to miss out

And I miss you so much

I cant wait to hear your voice

It's the only secure thing I have ever known

But what use is it when our definitions aren't the same

 

And I feel alone even when we are together

The truth is I'd love to say I love you

But I know you wouldn't agree

 

Whats the use in hopeing

I know our definitions aren't the same

I want to move on

So much good has passed by

But I fear "friendship" will be harder

knowing that we arent actually together.

 

 

I aimed so I wouldn't have to pull the trigger twice

But from cherished hearts arms

Fires burned out

The button doesnt pop back

Im trying to pry it from

Your confused cold thoughts

Of locked doors that are never answered

I step back to see the lights off

Still your shadow is cast on the curtains darker than night

Maybe you lost the keys

But with all the excusees I can make

You wont let get a foot hold up stairs

My love and care will always be here and for you

But someone else is holding the button down

 

My imaturity is lost

The rules are straight

And your crayon strays across the page

While im still deciding which to use color

I never trust just anyone

but I put my trust n you

I cant wish your problems away

And hope for the best

So when I got on your case 

I had to take your crayon away

You never opened your eyes to look at the picture

Of us that was crossed out

I still have you the heart i drew

With our scene broke down

My admaration clouded my vision

And the illusion carried on. 

 

 

When looks are gone

We all are the same brand

Blank and coarse as the sand.

What can you say?

Whats in my way?

Its not the curve of the road ahead,

But the roots were hidden to the eye!

You still compete!

You don't know where it leads,

But it's feeding off your facade

There is no longler an edge that ambiguously exsisted

because you are exposed.

LEAVE ME ALONE!

 

 

I dont want to scrape by

I want more before I'm gone

So I can pass it on

There is only so much time left

And little of it left to enjoy

I want my little boy to see me more than a wasted life

 

Everything is backwards

Alone I cant do anything except think of you

Nobody is pitching in except you

The best way is never the best,

but you make it better

Some say when you gain some thing you loose something else

Here and now I pick the crossroads

I remeber that .....

Get what you can before the next person in line

"Come with me"

 

Why we turned around I dont know

But because we did I am lost

My life was filled with nothing

until that day you came along

And now its gone

 

My puzzle isnt the same with out your pieces

And day after day I saw those pieces dissolve away slowly

I'd do anything to find them in you

Its eatting me away

There is so little time

I know what its like

Ive been that way before

You are my obsession

Now that you are gone

my time is over too!