I've seen you before

Im not quite sure

But you were standing there

With no cares

Staring up at me

Trying to make out the light

And decifer me from the darkness

 

Ive seen you before

Im not sure where

But you wer standing there

You were gone

All lost in the sky

 

I wish I could come out of the darkness

To find your eyes shine like the gaps

With you beneath me and too far away

Searching for the other was hopeless

 

I thought I saw you

But you were the one next to her

Looking at the ground

Laying the flowers holding her young hand

 

There are no pills to take

The bottle will stay full

Your just a faint silhouette

I have tried to move on

But your name still lingers near

It takes a lot to let go

Pictures fade

But memories redraw them

They make beautiful colors in the fire

Those colors are worth the loss

And it wasent mine to lose.

 

When it began it was fun

But lead to aspiration and desire.

I can remember the day I met you

it was the closest I got to you or anyone.

Its still drawn vividly

It was the best day ever spent

A Great Walk through thee city

laying on your bed

There was one thing wrong

The lost kiss

The night burned to an end

You were laying right there

And I disavowed all my desires

to leave these memories better than great

That moment will always be engraved in my memories

But now that im back home

that choice has haunted me

 

 

 

Im looking for a way out

It gets more tireing the longer im trying

In every direction their is a blinding white glare

I yelled and I never heard the echo

I can hear someone off in the distance replying to my cry

I see a figure I run towards it

As it gets bigger i can make out a shape

It looks like a girl with blonde hair on her knees wimpering

She looks up its Meagan

I then at that moment run into a clear wall unknowingly

I am waning into the next world or the last and i reach out through a precut hole in the glass

I grasp her hand

The blinding white light on her side turns into a meddow

of green grass and flowers

there are children runing and playing in the glass

She gazes at them like she knew they were there

I was trapped in a glass box

all i could do was look at her face

It was grim

It feelt like I hadent been there forever

It was like you were sad i was gone

we were together but seperated by that wall

You let go of my hand it felt like i was slipping away

you stood up turned and walked away you didnt look back you went to the children

i took all the strength i had to get on my knees to scream and bang on the glass i before i started to bang the children stoped playing and looked at me but meagan kept on walking

the beachball kept on bouncing

it rolled in your path but you dint even look at it you plowed right through it without a care you dissapeared i fell back to the ground screachng on the glass as the children watched and i woke up

To hold them back to long

To paymore and get less

is the most efficent purse

Emotions follow the same pattern

you yern longer

even when you cant

I looked for what was right

You didn't

We didnt even need the greif of a painful good bye

because I didnt say my name or ask for hers

I heard she drowned herself at another tap because of me.

Plans made

Plans lost

Blurry

I lost my chance

I no longer know what was planned

The pool I sipped from

sugar coated my memories

Your personal ravish glimmer,

drugged my thoughts of us

 

 

 

I have to look up to see you

And the heat coming out of the heater is cooler now

The cracks are expanding

My conscience is seeping through

Deeper in to the water supply

Maybe yooull taste your own medicine

Ill mop up the rest

The air is flowing to these cracks

The air is getting sucked out

the door is locked from the inside

I cant see it but my nails are getting longer

The dust is settleing higher

Her care is secreting her lifeless body

I cant hear anymore

but someone is calling to me

He is screaming "The coast is clear

Im sure that the devils trident is one soul sharper".

 

 

Found a lonely soul.

 

To see life

And make what you can

Deal with your oddities

Learn the methods

Putting them to the test

For every action there can be

an equal reaction yet sometime

resgister contrary to the facts

because to see a life is different

than knowing a life,

and believeing a life is different

than being one

Rational thinking is lost

to every cyclicial meaning

can you piece together with what

you think

you believe

you know to be true

there are to many tangents

And too often you see the most common

that seems to be true but

you know

you believe

you think

it might always not be that way  

 

Gone without a reason

When your dreams come crashing down

The burden of reality entraps you

It never breaks

Remaining encased

Because you wanna change your destinty

But you cant look forward

your stuck in reverse

No one can nurse you back

You waded to far out

theirs only one thing left

that you can turn to

or turn away from 

 

Revealing, unvailing, the darkened corners,

Recalling that second

It replays again again

My concentration is always lost,

As is your note now.

You now are as lost as your reasons.

 

It was next to the clock

last sunday morning

It sat there folded staireing back me

Puzzled and still in my moring haze

I made out the first word with flying and carless letters

GOOD....

GOOD BYE! Love you Always and Never!

 

As I read That storm clouds gathered

My love grew distant

Lightning struck

The lights flashed on the bare walls

There was no pictures on my dresser

or dresser for them to stand on them

Just nothing left in beween these four corners

except the empty space.

 

 

I wish upon a star...

That you would seem like a vail covering my eyes

You were so distant

But you are here with me

Memories of your smile held the key

The fog lifted and you were only a speck on the horizon

 I craved for the best results

And everything ringed

and the bell cracked.

 

Can it be filled by a sound?

Or do you need to be there when its said?

Why does it come and go?

In all our albums pictures

When ever i look at your smile

Im struck with a deep emtpyness.

Its like a piece of myself left

Where does it go?

When you are here with me, in those pictures, 

why is it still here?

When you are gone,

why is it filled?